ramadhan...day 1...the challenge begins...

today...the beginning of the holy month...

after living more than 25years (yes, not revealing my actual age), and gone through so many months of ramadhan...yesterday, i suprisingly found myself unprepared...saying: OMG, esok puasa!!!

i crawled out of bed, prepared a simple snack for sahur for myself and dear husband...dreadfully missing the good ol' days when at 4.30am, my mother's delicious dishes woke me...and the whole family will enjoy our sahur...even with my eyes half closed, i never failed to fill myself up as i do always...

i continued this day with mixed feelings, both good and bad...excited + happy + nervous + confused + slow + impatient + lazy...(not forgetting bothered by the sounds of drumrolls in my stomach)...

but then i ask myself, aren't these feelings felt every other day anyway???...what makes today and the rest of ramadhan so different?

the difference is, in the holy month, we go the extra mile to score points...doing more good, refraining ourselves from bad...hoping for Allah's s.w.t blessings in return...

but why just for 31 days, right?...

oh well...it's never too late to start aye?...i'm taking my mark, getting set, and ready to go!!!

...l-o l-o l-o l-o-v-e...

*sigh*

...counting the days...

to that day...and the many days after that...

where at any moment of the day, you can pause and smile...

knowing that someone loves you back...

...he wuvs me? he wuvs me not?...

*sigh*

i can never imagine the day when she tells me...

that she has fallen in love...for the 1st time...

what would i say? what would i do?...

perhaps i'd say 'whatever you do, don't start counting daisies to know how he feels about you'...

...widdle me dis, widdle me dat...

i dream...

of the day...

when i will be able...

to take your 'nyot-nyot' away...

...happy daddy's day, daddy!!!...

You're better then the best

I'm lucky just to linger in your light

Cooler than the flip side Of my pillow, that's right

Completely unaware

Nothing can compare to where

You send me, lets me know that it's okay...Yeah, it's okay

And the moments where my good times start to fade

You make me smile like the sun, fall out of bed

Sing like bird, dizzy in my head

Spin like a record, crazy on a Sunday night

You make me dance like a fool, forget how to breathe

Shine like gold, buzz like a bee

Just the thought of you can drive me wild

Oh, you make me smile!!!

...ah chooo!!! *sniff*sniff*...

question: how often do you appreciate your 5 senses?
answer: only when one of it goes 'oops sorry!not working like i'm suppose to!'

it's true...especially when the flu comes, you blame the weather, the air condition, your partner(who passed the baton to you), perhaps you even think of blaming a neighbouring country for not loving mother nature...

you hardly blame yourself...for not having that bloody apple (or whatever fruit that gives that boost) once a day to keep that white coat dude away...

so stop complaining...coz somehow, it is your fault...or god just wanted to leave you a post-it note that says 'hey!remember me?!!'...

oh yaya...hang on!!! mommy's comin' with a whole lot of yummylicious apples!!!

...cak!cak!...

if you haven't found at least 2 people in your life that you can:-

• share you stories of hopes, wishes and dreams...
• b!#^* about life, love, the opposite sex, and career...
• eat your heart out and ignore how tight your jeans are and not having to worry about being judged...
• cruise at 40km/hr...
• and leave with a warm feeling, making excuses to meet again...

...then i'd say you're missing out big time baby!!!